PRIDE'S INNER VOWS
Sadly, I have known for some time that my feelings of insecurity and inferiority had a deeper seat and had become a fortress/stronghold in the mind. It was NOT a relief to finally figure out that it was really about my pride! Ilk and yuk! I rather think I had a malady or excuse for those feelings. I also begin to learn that pride has another alliance friendship: FEAR! Fear I have so easily recognized over the eons, but pride being the source of insecurity and inferiority, I was self-deceived about. My fears from the Fall: being overlooked, opposed, disregarded, and loss of control, I could see one of the fears specifically, disregarded. The inner vows' sources were competing, comparing, and controling. I probably said to myself: "I will never", "I will always" or "I must". Now at this ripe age, I learned from a Bible teacher, that these inner vows are judgements I made against myself and sometimes toward others...